Knowing Someone.

What is honestly knowing someone? say for instance if your bestfriend told you he/she wasnt mad, when they actually are. Like would you be able to read that off of them? read their eyes for the truth they are not actually saying? How well do you think you knwo someone? what is knowing someone? You never really know someone. Only they do. And at times they don't. Has anyone ever said they know you so well, and then in the end that was a lie? Because they believed the lies your told. Which were probably "Yeah I'm not hurt" or "No he doesn't like me" or something like that. How much people long for someone to know them. How much I long for it. How much I want to be loved, how much I would love if someone came up to me out of no where and said "Your not okay, and don't you dare try to lie about it." This entry probably doesn't make sense. I'm sorry

Red Light, Green Lightt

So today I went to the mall. People really have staring problems, but it's okay. So
I didn't think there would be mexicans in the mall where I am at the moment, and I seen some so I was like umm wtf. haha. Then I video taped me outside the mall waiting for my father to pick me up, and a guy asked if I had a cigg. I was like umm noo, haha. I talked to a random person, and Made a cool video. I know it was lame but idcc. If anyone has any suggestions tell me. I need help on what to do. well I decided that while I was in the car I would still video tape, but I can't have the light on in the back seat while we are driving cause the police a strict over here. So When we were at a stop light I would turn on the light then record, haha. So there were red lights but they werent even a minute long haha, I would turn on the light then turn it off. It was crazy. The guy behind us would keep honking his horn lol. I think I annoyed him. Well It was funn. haha. Umm if anyone is readin this and has any suggestions on what I should do, please let me know. I'll appreciate it soooo muchh. Umm I'm going to head out now. Oh yeah and this is my first post that isnt about my thoughts or theories. Its actually about somethign I done haha. I'm lame I know. Byeass

Love

Love is just a reason to get hurt. even in the begining we know that it will happen. We try to prepare ourselves for the worst thing possible, but as days go by with the one you "love" you forget that it will happen. Then as it all starts coming to an end you ask yourself these questions like "why me?" or "not again". When your a teen your first crush and heartbreak are the ones that stick with you the most. But as time goes by and you figure out how it works you start to prepare yourself, and in that it all happens like a movie pressed on rewind. You prepared yourself for the worst but you get caught up in the lust and infatuation you forget. You find yourself in the same heartbreaking sistuation, same position, same feelings, and the same thought you had in the begining. so you get hurt once again. For the what? thousandth time in your life? People forget about all the things that can go wrong because they just want to be loved soo badly they want to feel that new rush of adrenaline. The new feeling of someone wanting you, someone "loving" you. I'm learning to build up my gaurd, because I personally don't want to be hurt again. I can't blame them though, and I won't.

Comments.

So almost everyone in the myspace world know Alex Evans right?? Well he is my Idol. He seems to be very intelligent. Everyone knows him by the "hottest guy" on myspace or what not. But from what I have read he doesn't want to be remembered as that. He wants to be remembered from the things hes done and accomplished. To me he is utterly amazing. Well I have been waiting for about 2 yrs to at least recieve a comment from him. So today I told him he was my Idol, and he commented back. I was so surprised. Even though it was a one word comment it ment alot for me because he took at least a couple of seconds out of a minute to comment me back. People arnt selfish. And unfortunatley I accidently deleted his comment =/. It doesn't matter at least I know he commented me back. haha.